We Know in Part, We Prophesy in Part: All I Know
These are end of the year thoughts from Witness 2. Photo Credit.
Dream - I don't know everything!
Before I tell you my dream from last night, I want to remind readers that I do not know everything. When I was telling Witness 1 my dream this morning, I was saying, "This may all be a reflection of my inner thoughts and consciousness, or it might be actually prophetic." I said, "I really need to share with readers something important about me."
I don't know everything, and I am nobody's saviour. Have I helped people? Yes! Do I do my best to serve Jesus Christ! Of course! Have some of my prophecies come to be? Yup! But do I know everything that is to come? No. Do I speculate? Of course. Do I make mistakes? Yes. Am I human? Yes. Am I God? No.
I don't know if anyone knows this, but I do not care about my label. I never once thought of myself as a prophet, and I'm careful to use that term. If you see me that way, great. If you don't, that's okay, too.
I don't know if I am one of the two witnesses.
God is the author, and I imagine, He likes a little suspense. Right now, God is writing my story, and yours, and the world's story. We are all characters, and when you read this blog, you are reading an actual live journal of my life.
God has not yet revealed to me everything, and I believe that is purposeful. If God just gives us everything, then what will we work for? What will we try?
God wants us to work for Him. He does. He motivates us to work, and He is motivating me to work. Every time I write, it is like a piece of the puzzle. That's it.
I told Witness 1, "I already know the very last words I will write." He laughed and asked me what they would be. I said, "I have nothing more to say."
On the day of my last blog post, those will be my last words: I will have nothing more to say, and it will be time for me to go.
Right now, I still have much to say. That is why I write so much. I write to help people, and I write to help myself. I write because God wants me to write.
This blog is only a reflection of what God has revealed to me at this very moment in time. There are things I know for certain, but there are things I do not know.
When you read this blog, can you please remember I do not know everything...nor do I claim to!
I feel a lot like Paul with my struggles. Sometimes it feels like Paul is explaining himself a lot, and that is exactly how I feel. He has to explain all of his motivations for everything he does, and that is what I am doing. It seems as Paul is always being accused, and that's how I feel sometimes.
What are my motivations? I am going to tell you the truth. I do not care about being rich, famous, or at this point, even well-liked. I do appreciate those who like me though. I do not think the world will ever like me in any way. I do not think I will receive any awards, accolades, or even much encouragement for any of this, but I appreciate when I do. I seriously love Jesus Christ with all my heart. When I write, I feel as close to Him as I can in this digusting, degrading world. When I write, I feel the Holy Spririt flow through me, and I touch on something I cannot touch on when I communicate with my mouth. It's me, but it's not me. It's like the higher version of me that works through the Holy Spirit.
I never once, growing up, thought, "I am going to be a doomsday prophet for God one day," nor do I even know if that is what God wants me to be.
Did you know God has humbled me into oblivion? I can't even say I am anybody because I know better. The minute I start to think I am something...or even suppose...I am reminded of my humility. I am just a human.
What can I offer to Jesus Christ for what He has given me? My writing. My help to others. My ability to connect with people.
Still, I also wanted to share some bad experiences, too. There are a lot of people I haven't helped. As I am writing this, I know there are people who hate me, who blame me for their problems, who use me as a scapegoat. This is ludicrous, and I do not accept any responsibility for a person's failures. If I cannot help someone, I cannot help them. Then, in our real life ministry, it is a big battle. You don't see the ugly side of doing this type of ministry work.
Witness 1 has seen me get into fights with people, and honestly, being constantly begged for money is exhausting. It exhausts my soul. One of the goals of our ministry is to eliminate the culture of begging to an extent, and it is difficult work. I spend so many hours walking people through Scripture, and how many times have I been accused of not loving God when I deny someone money?
The ministry requires dirty work, and you all do not see it.
In 2023, I was a beggar in many ways. I begged people to support us. I begged people to come to our meetings, and I begged people to care.
God has taken me out of this beggary. He has humbled me, and now He is uplifting me. I am no longer a beggar, and I will not be a beggar.
I am a servant, but I am not a slave.
That is what my first year of real ministry work has taught me.
I want to make this clear. I am not here to fix anyone or anything. Only Jesus Christ can do that. He can work through me as much as He wants, and people can accept this work as much as they want.
I do not know everything, and I cannot save anyone.
Going back to Paul, what led him to write these classic verses?
13:9 For 1063 we know 1097 5719 in 1537 part 3313, and 2532 we prophesy 4395 5719 in 1537 part 3313.
13:10 But 1161 when 3752 that which is perfect 5046 is come 2064 5632, then 5119 that which is in 1537 part 3313 shall be done away 2673 5701.(done away: Gr. vanish away)
13:11 When 3753 I was 2252 5713 a child 3516, I spake 2980 5707 as 5613 a child 3516, I understood 5426 5707 as 5613 a child 3516, I thought 3049 5711 as 5613 a child 3516: but 1161 when 3753 I became 1096 5754 a man 435, I put away 2673 5758 childish things 3516.(thought: or, reasoned)(put away: Gr. vanish away)
13:12 For 1063 now 737 we see 991 5719 through 1223 a glass 2072, darkly 1722 135; but 1161 then 5119 face 4383 to 4314 face 4383: now 737 I know 1097 5719 in 1537 part 3313; but 1161 then 5119 shall I know 1921 5695 even as 2531 also 2532 I am known 1921 5681.(darkly: Gr. in a riddle)
13:13 And 1161 now 3570 abideth 3306 5719 faith 4102, hope 1680, charity 26, these 5023 three 5140; but 1161 the greatest 3187 of these 5130 [is] charity 26.
I think I get it now. He was speaking to people only of what He knew - that He could not reveal every mystery or claim to know it all.
We will not know fully until the imperfect is done away with, and right now, we are in state of complete imperfection. This "in part" is not done away with - we are in it.
Again, we are "in part" right now. We are not complete.
Paul is explaining that much remains a mystery, and until He is complete and perfect with the Lord, it will remain that way.
He only knows one truth though, and this is exactly all I know.
All I know is that the greatest things that we should abide in are faith, hope, and note the word, charity. And the greatest of these is charity.
Interestingly, we often hear love used here, and I think love is fine, but it has been watered down, hasn't it? Its lost its powerful connotation. In other words, the term love has been so watered down by the world, that it doesn't have the power it once had, so using that word charity is so much more powerful, at least to me.
When I started the ministry with Witness 1, both online and real life, all I knew is that I needed to give charity - not just with money, but in anyway I possible can: prayers, encouragement, rebuke, compassion, etc.
This is what I am trying to offer through this blog:
Word: agaph
Pronounce: ag-ah'-pay
Strongs Number: G26
Orig: from 25; love, i.e. affection or benevolence; specially (plural) a love-feast:--(feast of) charity(-ably), dear, love. G25
Use: TDNT-1:21,5 Noun Feminine
Heb Strong: H160
1) brotherly love, affection, good will, love, benevolence
2) love feasts
Agape love. Charity. A love feast. Benevolence. Good Will. All the love I can.
This is the love of Christ. I am imperfect, so there will always be an "in part" to this all.
So, I want readers to know, I don't know everything. I write as I know, I write to know, and I write to try to know.
Give me that grace of allowing me not to know everything. Let me write in part, until we are all complete.
If I am right, and I am truly working for the Lord, what I say will come. If it does not come, this blog will naturally burn out and fade away.
I won't write for the sake of writing. I will only write until I cannot anymore - until I have nothing more to say.
So, as I post my dreams, my prophecies, my speculations, and even my "off the wall" thoughts, allow it...have grace for it.
Allow it, consider it, and pray about it. And then, let's see what happens.
All I know is I don't know everything. All I know is I know in part. All I know is the greatest, most vital, important thing I can do is serve you all with love.
When I am not complete, forgive me. When I am sad, uplift me. When I need you, help me.
In return, I will not stop. I will run this website at great risk for my worldly life. It is a risk, don't you see?
Every word I put down on this blog is a risk. But I am doing it all for Jesus Christ and my love for you all. You may not all love me, and that's okay - I don't expect any love in return. But if you do love me, thank you.
To wrap up this section up, I wanted to share my dream. Then, in a coming post, I will go deeper into what I think is coming in 2024.
Will this happen? All I know is that I need to share my dreams with you all.
So, I still have things to say. I am going to say them for now.
My Dream: Covid-23
I saw a large radio tower, similar to a 5G tower, but more like this:
At the top of the tower, I saw the words "Covid-23." I was looking at the tower, and I saw different news headlines in bold titles pasted on the tower, working up to the very top. They said things about variants, sickness, and death.
In the next part of the dream, I saw people at an airport. There was a snowstorm, indicating winter time. They were logging into an app to record which variant of Covid they had, and there were a list of many different variants. I saw they were traveling to Oregon. Maybe something will happen in Oregon in regards to this sickness.
If this dream is prophetic, I believe that Covid-23 is coming in the winter.
Again, am I just thinking about this all too much? Is it just all in my subconscious and playing out in my dreams?
Or is it prophetic?
I know in part, I prophesy in part.
If I were to speculate, sickness is going to increase into 2023, and there is going to be a change in what we see. There will be some type of technological requirement for recording sickness and health, maybe during a phase of the next pandemic.
Remember, as always, I pray for before bed and ask Jesus Christ for dreams. I try to deeply specify my prayers so that He can provide me with wisdom and use to readers. I pray against all false sprirts in the name of Jesus Christ.
If I am right, there is something coming regarding a "new" illness or a "mutated" illness. In a follow-up post to this, I have more to say about this prophecy, but for now, I need to take a break.
God has me working all of the time, don't you all know? I am busy 24/7, and I rarely get breaks. I am not complaining. I truly enjoy doing this all. I truly never thought my life would be like this.
The thing that has changed in me the most is that I started allowing people to not like me. I used to care so deeply what people thought of me - if I was approved by them or not. This was one of my biggest idols throughout my life.
But my life, and 2023 specifically, has taught me, I will never be approved by men. And like Paul says, if I was still seeking their approval, then what would I even be doing? I would not, and I could not, be a servant of God:
- New International Version Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.
So, everyone, will you allow me to continue to serve God? Will you serve Him with me? Will you support this blog and ministry, even when I only know in part?
I pray you do in Jesus's holy name.
Thank you all for a wonderful year of deep spiritual growth. I sense that 2024 will be a year like never before in history.
God bless you all in the name of Jesus Christ,
- Witness 2
And to end, here is one of my favorite songs, called, "All I know":